原谅自己酒后的尴尬行为

我在这里写的是希望分享这些会让我感觉更好。所以前几天我和几个朋友(我认识的时间不长)去了一家俱乐部，喝了几杯。我记得我在里面跳舞，玩得很开心，我不记得喝了超过四杯伏特加，我通常都能处理得很好。然而，我记得的下一件事是早上从医院醒来，仍然完全没有意识。我只是收拾好东西，说了再见，甚至都没问发生了什么。我甚至在回家的路上迷了路，好不容易给自己叫了一辆出租车。当我回到家的时候，我收到了很多朋友的信息，他们告诉我，没有必要担心我只是在跳舞时突然失去了所有的力量，在厕所里呕吐，然后完全失去了知觉，他们已经为我叫了救护车，带我去了医院。我一点都不记得了。出院时我吐了，衣服上都是血，还有打点滴和抽血时留下的针孔。我的朋友们都很友好，他们中的一些人说怀疑我的酒被下了药。 Regardless I’m feeling so embarassed for ending up in a hospital on a simple night out and having my friends worry and look after me. Especially not knowing whether I got into that situation myself or if I was spiked and not remembering absolutely anything that happened. I know things could have been a lot worse and apparently I had not said or done anything embarassing according to one of my mates, and I did express my gratefulness to all of them afterwards but I just really wish I could erase the whole night. I called my ex boyfriend whom I’m still really good friends with in the morning and he said that it’s alright we’ve all been there once or more and that made me feel better and I guess that’s why I’m here.

不久前，我(一个女孩)喝醉了，觉得在俱乐部中间和这个女孩亲热是个好主意。事情变得有点激烈，显然他们的视频是我认识的人拍的。最后我回到家，拒绝进去，所以我和我的狗睡在外面的车库里……请给我你的建议，我现在感觉糟透了。

我太早了，试图戒掉这杯酒。2天前，在办公室聚会上，我喝得酩酊大醉，在所有下属和同事面前摔倒。我的前额严重受伤(流血的前额)，真的感到羞愧，我也失去了尊重……我需要忘记这件事……谁能给点建议?

我的朋友和我一起喝醉了，我完全退缩了，对发生的事情有模糊的记忆，我想那只是有点恶心，因为你喝醉了就会做傻事。但事实并非如此。情况糟得多。我记得我向我的朋友示好，但当他们告诉我真相时，我不知道我怎么能再忍受下去。我就是不让他们一个人呆着，我一直在努力让事情发生，以至于我的朋友哭了，而我甚至都不知道。情况本来可能会更糟，但那一刻我甚至没有意识到我的朋友有多不安全，有多害怕。我甚至不记得发生了什么。我对他说了所有我能说的，我给他空间。我一直在想，他们一定感觉受到了多大的伤害和背叛。当你期待和朋友度过一个快乐的夜晚时，你最好的朋友完全虐待了你。 I know we won’t ever be friends again, and I don’t even care if they forgive me. I want them to be okay. I don’t know how to forgive myself because it feels like more that just embarrassment. My drunkenness didn’t only affect me, it hurt others. Which I can stand. I don’t even drink often, but every time I do, it’s awful. Escpecially this time.

我以前是个酒量很大的人，一天喝3-8瓶啤酒。从来没有做过被囚禁的蠢事;我们都喝酒，我的朋友们都明白，疯狂的事情可能会发生，所以我们都对愚蠢的争吵、愚蠢的评论和财产破坏持保留态度。当然，这是在有弹药的情况下。我并没有真正停止喝酒，但从2015年开始，我每周喝一杯啤酒。有一天晚上，我因为紧张而喝酒;自尊心很低，这种感觉给我带来了很多问题。我最后都晕过去了;在这段时间里，我的活动(感谢宇宙)只在我自己的家里和我最好的两个朋友。
我在胡言乱语，我擅自闯入我室友的房间(在朋友1号上面)，公然拿东西乱扔。我会去我的房间，说我没事，让我躺下，然后在10秒内，我又会走到客厅，表现得像个白痴一样，好像什么都没发生过。我一直在说同样的话，我大声地读出我的想法。我喝了多少或喝了什么与我在这里的帖子无关。问题是我晕过去了。细节对我自己来说是多余的，因为它让我痛苦地认为我甚至有能力做我被告知我正在做的事情。我记得一些最糟糕的....我洗了个澡，一丝不挂地走了出来，脑子里没有任何顾虑，跌跌撞撞地“表现得正常”，走进客厅，坐在电视沙发上，看着两个我真正尊敬的人，头脑清醒。但事实并非如此，就好像全身湿透、蓬头垢面、一丝不挂是正常的一样。天啊，怎么会发生这种事。 is all i keep saying. I must have thought I was clothed or at least covered. I fear this is really going to ruin friend #1 \ 2 and my own relationship wioth myself which isn't great all the time anyway.
我一清醒过来，就在房间里玩隐居游戏。1 .他把我的狗带出去，扔垃圾桶等。有一次我颤抖的手(他们仍然为任何打字错误感到抱歉)和足够的勇气，他问我是否头脑清醒，我说是的。他告诉我在昨晚过去的两个小时里我们已经讨论过11次了。所以我坐在那里，他肯定让我吃了。我都不知道说什么好了。他把我所做的事告诉了我，在此之前，我什么都记不清了。我知道出事了，但不知道发生了什么。他开始提起过去的事件，我性格和心态的属性，这令人震惊，因为他从来没有提到过这些事件有如此持久的影响。我理解移情的概念; im not a sociopath, but it only pushed my grief and pain and shame deeper down. I was so distraught I panicked and asked why he didn't tell me before, I asked why he didnt he said I'm a grown man I should know. He pulled the scalding father card "youre lucky we didnt kick your ass or knock you out' etc... His response was seething anger. His main tangent of arguing was that this is an ongoing issue. Not the drinkking or the INSANE drunk criminal behavior, but just aspects of what Ive done on impulse day to day that bother him. For example once I ate a few ceral bars and took a pack of smokes from him. We've been friends years, and each those times I made it right after him catching me red handed (strawberry filled bars) and for the latter I just straight up admitted it to him. He forgave me then. I took responsibility. He then went on and brought up things I didn't know about or even realize were HUGELY bothering him. I will omit the details but its similarly comparable in level of dastardliness to when I went into with entering his room while he's at work to say grab a pen or a pair of shorts. Those are examples and yes it's wrong to not ask an do that. Plain and simple. I know that and I never did those kind of thiings again. It's impulsive my stupid mind; it needs to be told not to do things otherwise my impuslivity will kiill me, He mentioned "he can't bring people over" becausae he's "afraid" I would offend. Not, buy drinking or acting a loon but just who I Am. I speak my mind so I get that people don't like to hear the truth. This is something I will work on now that it has hurt others. All this must have been his anger at me spilling over into other aspects of our living situation. GOing back into the previous night, he slayed me out some more: I was apparently also disrespectful verbally, and mumbling to people who weren't there; hallucinating and mumbling to my self incoherently. I was 0-100 with my impulse. How can I get him to believe me that I have learned and will by GOD NEVER do this. Im shaking crying and in so much shame but so defeated I can't even bear myself. Is that empathy? is that guiilt? I really feel I deserve the chance to prove that this was isolated; yet i twas so extreme how can I ever not forget but move on? I had no regard for anyone or theyre respect or dignity. I mean I committed indecent exposure essentially. Thats illegal here in the states! I didn't get sick or pass-out... I wish i did. I Just kept coming out my room nude 3 or 4 times, taking stuff that wasnt mine or moving our furniture. My friend (if he still is) 2 left in apparent disgust. I must have humiliated him and embarrassed not only me but especially those who trust me. I'm so overridden with pain now. Drinking never turned its back until Yesterday Feb 22 2018. I honestly can forgive myself, I honestly can move on, I know that honestly God forgives me or whatever the concept forgives me.
接下来的步骤只是改进。这成了我的新作案手法，不喝酒了。我觉得我有激情坚持到底，因为我有很多抱负、激情和梦想。我觉得我可以概念化这一点，因为我精神健康，性格明智，但我知道我必须遭受其他的东西，比如导致这一点的生理精神疾病。尽管如此，要求一个自称是你的好朋友的人真的太过分了吗?一个在我最值得的时候没有把我打到%%%%的人，一个如此接受的人，为了他自己的理智而让我保持一致?至少是为了他自己内心的平静。
嗯…
这是第二天，现在我不得不抽出时间给自己，基本上是隐居在我的房间里，围绕着我所做的一切和回忆，狠狠地打击自己。我指的是真正的数字。任何人对我说的话都不能像我自己打自己那样伤害我。他很快就会回家了……至于他的行为举止，他被忽略了，走过或快速嗨，他在这里或那里。我真的很想知道该怎么处理。在今天早些时候最初的简短谈话中，他不想谈论或听我的主观经验。这对他重要吗?我相信这件事应该马上解决，这样他就能感同身受，或者至少为我感到难过……为什么他要把这些小事情憋在心里，而这些小事情我很乐意去做，去改变，去肯定，去纠正。 Why did he wait until I do the ultimate stupid thing of my past 27 years. I told him (since nothing was broken) I would clean up the house and make it back to normal i.e. make it right physically. I asked for basic forgiveness with a valid sincere "brother I have made a bad judgement and my actions/behavior were incomprehensibly inexcusable" He didn't forgive me I think, at least didn't say it and albeit amicable he was not wanting to hear it I could tell.
几个小时过去了，他精神好多了。我的精神还是一团糟。我很惭愧。我想向他表达我的感受，但首先要问他谈话的适当界限是什么。我打字的时候他正在打电话。我很快地告诉他我想和他谈谈。这是我唯一能做的，但我可能永远不会原谅我自己。从我自己的行动中学习，从关心你的人的言语中学习。也许我们最终会分道扬镳，这很可悲，我这辈子都会带着那个芯片。我接受生活抛给你的一切，我只需要开始适应它，不再担心别人对我的看法。 They aren't important, not when my own mental anguish is causing my issues. It comes off callus but its the best thing I can think of doing now if we arent' on improved or amicable terms after this travesty. Advise? What do you think I should have done differently and do next? I know im a responsible adult but is it so bad to ask for a little outside accountability? Not baby sit just if someone says they are a good friend why is that such a difficult thing? This whole situation could have been avoided, (not me drinking, just friends 1 and 2 helping someone obivously in need instaid of just waiting it out and hating me for it.... I've been told I hold others accountable with their mistakes and they have thanked me. I wish someone can clear up my turbulent mind and make sense of this all for me. Please I can take all the shame humilation but I can't understand how this could have happened the way it did. When I asked friend 1 said "we tried closing you in your room, and locking the door" but my door doesn't lock he knows that.... Idk ive got so much cognitive dissonance IDK what im going to do.

在酗酒之后的几个月里，我一直在努力原谅自己。奇怪的是，这篇文章和阅读评论区其他人的故事让我感觉好多了，所以我想分享它是公平的。
我最好的朋友付钱让我去参加她和她的朋友们的活动，这让我兴奋了几个星期。那天，我第一次尝试了龙舌兰酒(坏主意)，喝得太醉了，我昏了过去。第二天，我发现我做了一些相当可怕的事情;推别人，试图打架，诅咒她的朋友，基本上一整天都是一个**。酒精通常不会对我产生这种影响，断片是非常罕见的。我觉得在不同的情况下我可以很容易地原谅自己，但让我最好的朋友失望让我感到恶心=[她已经原谅了我，但这会让我有更多的时间来原谅自己。

我又一次因为酗酒而毁了圣诞节!奶奶的!17年夏天，我开始了一段新的恋情……终于，我遇到了我的梦中情人……我崇拜他，但他对我却没有同样的感觉……尤其是在今年平安夜的插曲之后。我不能喝酒....简单明了，我对自己的行为感到非常尴尬……非常沮丧，因为我失去了他。让我们回到我们认识几个月后....第一集… We were having drinks and once again I had way more than I could handle and insecurity not feeling good enough started creeping in.... Started telling him to go back to his ex and family and that he didn't love me. The next day I felt so ashamed...and apologized. He forgave me thank goodness. Now lets one year ago.... Episode 2... We are fairly new couple, our first Christmas together- we were head over heels for eachother and so happy that we found eachother (we are in our 40's and was new to the dating game ) A couple of nights before Christmas I had my friend in town for the holidays so naturally she came over to visit me. This is the first time for her meeting him and we had a blast! Then another friend came over ( was not invited by me but by the friend who was visititing) I had recently just started talking again to this "friend" after over a year of not talking so our relationship was still shaky. By the time she arrived I was already buzzing pretty good and my crazy mind was going...I could feel insecurity running thru my mind. Both of the friends left for a moment to go grab ice. During that time I lashed out at my boyfriend accusing him starring at the friend #2... Screaming at him that he was smittened with her etc.... saying some pretty mean things that he did not deserve He ended up leaving my house and I continued to drink by myself , In a rage... throwing presents, crying etc. This continued well into the next day. My neighbor called the cops and I received a noise complaint and a fine. I don't remember talking to the police at the door. My daughter filled me with the details as she came to my house at some point during my drinking bindge... After 2 days of drinking, it was time for me to hide in my bed, die with a hangover and hate myself for my behavior. My boyfriend came back, and told me he loved me and took care of me. He forgave me for my actions. I was so grateful that he still loved me. We put it behind us and enjoyed what was left of the holidays. Now lets move onto Episode 3 ... In May we went to Cuba for a week.... 2 Nd day in once again I drank too much and started a fight....that he wasn't attracted to me , that he didn't love me and so on. Needless to say he was hurt and upset with me a didn't talk to me for a good day... I apologized once again and asked him if we can please just enjoy the rest of our trip and It's best that I don't drink too much... We started speaking to eachother but through the rest of the trip it was off... I could feel the distance...I really fucked up and he was pulling away from me ... We arrived home and things started to get back to loving normalcy for us..... Months go by and we are back to the lovingcouple that I adored until one night this November....we are having wine....again I am drinking way too much... Started getting rude and saying mean things...shit he doesn't deserve. He told me he hates when I drink that I am a different person and that he is sick of it. He went to bed.... I slept on the couch. He didn't speak to me for a good couple of days...I begged him for his forgiveness and that I was sorry again... He told me the next time I treat him like that again that he is done with me. That he is not putting up with it.... he says in one breath that I am an alcoholic then says he don't care if I drink but I can't act the way I do and treat him so horribly or hes gone .... Now lets bring you to this Christmas Eve.... We go out, finish our shipping, come home have a beautiful seafood dinner and WINE..... Well I guess u know what happens next... Yep I drink too much and we are fighting , screaming at eachother.... He smashed our pictures.... Told me we were done..( as he said would happen if this shit happened again).... Woke up the next day (Xmas day) and cried ....so ashamed .... Gifts still sitting under our tree, him not speaking to me, my family worried about us, it is 4 days after the he does not want to talk to me. I have tried to communicate with him but he doesn't want to talk to me I seriously ruined it....I have contacted AA for some help.... I know full well I cannot drink...That it had ruined and will continue to ruin everything in my life. I have been feeling ashamed, sad, angry, lonely for days...all because of my alcoholic behavior. I Quit... I am done. I have a long road ahead of me but I will do this. Losing my love may be the savoir I need. Kills me that I hurt him so much.... So ashamed but hopefully in time we will both heal. Thanks for listening to me. Be good to one another xo

两天前的晚上，我去了女朋友家的圣诞派对。这是我第三次和她一起去。他们每年都有一次。在和女朋友见面之前，我和我的朋友一起出去玩。我和我哥们喝了杯Steelie，喝了一大罐keystone冰然后去见我女朋友。
她已经看出我有点醉了，但我说我没事。她在去的路上在加油站停了下来，买了一箱budlight啤酒。当我们走进她叔叔的房子时，所有的家人都已经在那里了，我拿起啤酒放在吧台上(她叔叔家里有一个内置的酒吧，很酷)，不管怎样，我开始喝更多的酒。那天晚上，我想我已经喝了三瓶啤酒，然后我注意到威士忌，所以我喝了一杯威士忌。然后是另一个。那晚我只记得喝了这么多酒。
不管怎样，过了一会儿，她告诉我，我需要放慢速度，因为我是那里醉得最厉害的人，我让人们心烦意乱。但显然我没有停下来。第二天我在床上醒来，他们告诉我发生了什么。
显然我差点砸到她阿姨和她阿姨刚出生的婴儿，她的另一个家庭成员告诉她让我远离她13岁的儿子，因为我和他说话，喝醉了，还骂人。我根本不记得离开过。但她告诉我她阿姨给我做了酒精测试我的酒精浓度是0.27。
她说我们走了，我喝得太醉了，回不了家(我们和父母住在一起，我已经对回家的好斗行为进行了2次罢工)，所以我们和一些朋友见面，去看了一场朋克表演，我想我和大家一起出去玩，在停车场上跑来跑去，表现得像个该死的傻瓜。他们发现我和一群我以为认识的人在一起，但当我表妹找到我时，人们说“谢谢你把她带来，我们甚至不知道她是谁”。我发誓我认识他们。我有一些闪回，但我不知道什么是真实的，什么不是。然后我和我女朋友吵了一架，说了些伤人的话，然后我无缘无故地想打我一个最好的朋友的头。就像我一样，他们说我很可怕，有时很有趣，然后真的很讨厌。我女朋友说我在她家的圣诞派对上让她很尴尬，我真的对自己和那天晚上感到很内疚。我出了洋相。我有酗酒问题，但我承认这一点，但我不想成为一个酒鬼。我想喝酒而不是昏厥，但每次我说我可以喝几杯啤酒放松一下，结果总是我变得一团糟，我记不住事情，做一些愚蠢和尴尬的事情，让人们生气。 Everyone knows that when I start drinking they're gonna have to deal with my dumbass. I always wake up with such bad hangovers. I can't drink in moderation.
有天晚上我想跟我妈打架。我想我需要治疗。我只是很伤心。

谢谢大家的分享。我感觉糟透了。昨晚我叫一个女孩滚蛋。我错了，她对我说话粗鲁，我只是做出了反应。好吧，我是错了，但你没必要这么粗鲁。所以现在我要粗鲁地回应，但我太过火了。
你喝醉的时候说的话总是有一定道理的。指出我在现实生活中遇到了这样的问题。
那是在一个工作圣诞派对的尾声。大多数人都走了，而它是一个陌生人。我感到非常羞愧和尴尬。担心工作被发现，毁了我的事业。
与别人经历过的事情相比，也许听起来还不错。我一直在为自己努力，就像…真的吗?你在干什么?我在醉醺醺的生活中做过很多不光彩的事情，但这些天不那么多了。
我要试着原谅自己。我不能道歉，因为是陌生人。但愿那姑娘能看出我是个喝醉酒的傻瓜，别往心里去。
对于那些有屈辱经历的人。我同情你。我们都犯过错误。你会熬过去的。怎么做?通过向他们学习。你可以改变。如果你重复这个过程，那么你可以再试一次。这种情况从未停止过。

你好。我真的需要帮助，我去了我的工作之夜，一切都是伟大的开始。我真的很紧张，因为我老板的家人也在那里，因为我工作的地方只有3个汉。前一秒我还不太好下一秒我就在医院对着老板哭了。我不知道发生了什么，我完全昏过去了，我很尴尬，记住我是那里第二小的，但不管怎样，我今天去上班了，我很害怕，也很尴尬，但我的老板周末给我发了短信，问我怎么样了，我确实向她的女儿和我的同事道歉了，但我还是很害怕。我去上班了，她说我很讨厌你，我都不忍心看你一眼。你毁了大家的夜晚。听到这些真让我想结束自己的生命。我有抑郁症，我喝酒来麻痹这种感觉，但我已经过去了，我每天晚上都想自杀，但警察阻止了我，我没有告诉我的老板或任何人，只告诉了我的同事。我只有19岁,我毁掉了一切我的老板不喜欢我所以不她的整个家庭,他们有权但我不知道发生了什么一分钟我不跟这个人,他给我买一个喝我们相处,我被告知我几乎不能走路,我一直在哭,想说的东西但不出来,然后我开始有一个适合我老板的女儿面前的。 But before tht apparently I was trying to bite my wrists. And no one knew why. But when they said tht to me I know why would do that. I scratched and bite wrists when I was in high school to try and kill myself and I do it when I get very low and go into a dark place and I’m afraid I’m in it again anf I cant find my way out. And the only way to get out if the embarrassment is to end my life. I guess the answer I’m hopjng for is maybe someone’s has done something like this before and if so how’s long do you feel this way. Cos I really need help and don’t be know how to ask.

我也有一个愚蠢的醉酒时刻，我感到非常羞愧和尴尬。有一天晚上，我和朋友们出去玩，当他们回家的时候，我在一家酒吧下车，去见我的一个女朋友……我已经醉得很厉害了，我不知道为什么我当时没有回家……所以我去了酒吧，我失去了控制，喝了很多酒，喝了很多酒，我完全失去了知觉。第二天，我的朋友告诉我，我完全醉了，我在长椅上睡着了，和一个男人亲热，然后试图打一个女孩，我被赶了出来，然后就问别人要搭便车回家……幸运的是，它回家了....第二天我感觉很糟糕，因为这不是第一次发生不好的事情了。我已经决定戒酒了，但我只是希望能够原谅自己，不再去想那天晚上的事

自从新年以来，我第一次在周末喝酒，因为酒精真的不适合我;我再一次向自己证明了为什么我不该费心。每次我喝酒，都会因为某种原因和我的伴侣争吵。从来不是她，总是我——因为最愚蠢的理由。我真的很爱她，如果我失去她，我会死的，她意味着世界，但每次我喝酒，我感到尴尬，可怕，我不明白为什么她和我在一起?她喜欢出去和她的朋友们一起喝酒跳舞，当我和她在一起的时候，她觉得很安全，但不管我喝什么，似乎总是以同样的方式结束，这让我变得讨厌。我非常爱这个女孩，我想和她出去跳舞，玩得很开心，但我觉得如果我继续下去，她就不会和我在一起了，因为她为什么要这样做呢?我不是故意这样做的，醒来被告知，阅读我发送的信息只是让我感到恶心，因为我说的事情没有一个是真实的。我充满了抱歉，我觉得我说得再多也不够，因为伤害已经造成了。这是我第一次见到她最好的朋友和她的伴侣，我刚刚让自己看起来像个公鸡，因为我有点醉了，所以嫉妒了一些事情。 I just wish this hadnt have happened, drunk me just seems to overthink without the thinking and just acts on things that arent even true. Right now I dont know what to do, I love my girlfriend so much and I don't want her to leave; but at the same time, I dont want to make her have to put up with this each time she'd like us to have a drink together, so i think im screwed :(

我回来了!是啊，现在是凌晨3点46分，我已经昏昏沉沉了。是的，我出去喝了各种朗姆酒和龙舌兰酒。哦，是的，今晚的专题，我到处告诉人们我做的各种事情都是假的，我是为了让他们看起来更好。因为你知道我还不够好我自己是谁我要成为更好的人比真正的我更酷的人。我记录这些的原因，是为了让其他人发现某种Soace他们并不孤单。我为自己和我所做的一切感到非常羞愧。我妻子昨晚走的时候很生气，而我一点都不关心?这一切都是我的错这一切都是我的责任。就在24小时前，我还在发这个或者其他不那么尴尬的东西。 Just so you know my wife is probably going to leave me because my drinking. And I don't blame her one bit. How can I expect her to watch somebody she loves kill themselves slowly each day. Just when I thought things were going to get any worse LOL guess what? My worst nightmare Happened. I'm such a loser! My sweet wife just wants me to be healthy and sober. And she's just tired of the alcohol? She works so hard, deserve way better than me. Like I said this morning, I went right out and bought another bottle. I lied to people for no reason, I'm the worst sorry excuse for a human!

谢谢大家，你们所有痛苦的、发自内心的故事真的让我觉得我并不孤单。我喝。我喝很多酒，每天都喝，早上也喝。我喜欢龙舌兰酒，它只知道如何聚会。我今天醒来，每天都在自我打击，感觉自己是最大的失败者。我真的想辞职，但我做不到?吓死我了。我吃美沙酮止痛，每晚喝一品脱以上的酒?我害怕我可能上床就再也醒不过来了?很多事情我都希望我能收回，只是这个反复出现的噩梦我无法控制!奶奶的! I've got to get through today and not drink! I have to but I'm probably gonna go get a fucking bottle as soon as the liquor store opens. I feel so useless.

我昨晚在一个工作聚会上喝得很醉，这让我很难受。
我很高兴看到这篇文章和所有的评论;对我处理尴尬的感觉很有帮助。
谢谢你！

过去两年的遗憾。我真的需要你的帮助。我对我的酒后行为深感后悔。首先，我在众多村民面前暴露了自己的艾滋病毒阳性状况，成为了一个笑柄。我陷入抑郁，开始酗酒。我曾经侮辱过我的一位家族朋友，她是我父亲的配偶，也是我父亲婚礼筹备委员会的主席。我不知道该怎么办。我不知道从哪里开始。从那以后再也没来过我的村子。哦，我该怎么办? Can I be forgiven?? my reputation that was good is spoilt. Please I need an advice.

谢谢大家的分享。在过去的12年里，我一直在让自己难堪，酒精让我在少管所/监狱里呆了很长时间。我做过的每一个错误的决定都是因为酒精。前年(2018年3月)，我喝得太醉了，在和交往8年的男朋友以及4个孩子参加聚会时，我开始和几个男人搭讪。我也在和已婚男人搭讪他们妻子在场的时候?不过我想他们都没听见我说的话。我男朋友差点就离开我了，但他对我真实自我的爱不让他这么做。我为他感到难过，但我不能让他走，因为我觉得如果我这样做，我会孤独地死去，我甚至没有朋友或家人，因为我在喝醉的时候破坏了所有的关系:(我最后一次喝酒是大约两个月前独自在家，我什么都不记得了。我刚醒来，浑身都是尿:(我2岁的孩子和我一起睡在床上，我尿得太多，污渍几乎覆盖了床垫。我只是感谢最高的力量，因为我的男朋友和他的朋友出去了，所以没有在这里见证。 I have a history of flipping out on him when I'm drunk and I don't know why bc. I love that man more than anything in this world. All I know is that I have to leave drunkenness in the past (I'm 26) and I'm almost 1000% sure I can do it b c I'm tired of hating myself and ruining my own life. Thank God my kids haven't felt the full effect of it.. I have more stories fo anyone who needs to hear some more in order to feel better

周五下午，我和一个同事出去喝了几杯酒，结果喝了四杯酒，喝了三杯烈酒。不幸的是，我是那种一喝就停不下来的人，所以我继续喝。当我回到家时，我决定在附近散散步，结果和三个不同的邻居喝醉了话。我丈夫告诉我，我在邻居的孩子面前说脏话。我什么都不记得了。这是我一年来第一次喝酒，因为我怀孕了，还有我们的第二个孩子。我感到非常尴尬和羞愧。我要去跟她道歉，但我觉得现在所有人都会认为我是邻居的酒鬼就因为我愚蠢的一天。我绝对不会再喝酒了，因为它似乎不再给我带来任何乐趣，只会让我感到羞耻和尴尬。

一周前，我参加了一个下午5点左右开始的同事聚会。我一到那里就开始喝酒，一切都很顺利，直到晚上10点左右派对才结束。当我坐上出租车回家时，我打电话给我的一个朋友，看他是否想出去。他答应了，他会去我家接我。他来接我的时候我醉得很厉害，但我知道我表现得很好，因为我什么都记得。当我们到达酒吧时，我记得我开始变坏了。我回忆起在酒吧看到我认识的人，但不记得我是如何表现的，也不记得我说了什么。我知道当我喝酒的时候我是一个非常慷慨的人，我记得当我看到我认识的人时，我会请他们喝一杯。我记得那天晚上有一件事是我在酒吧为某人买饮料，我的卡被拒绝了。很显然，那天我的卡上交易太多了，所以我的银行决定切断我的账户。 I am stressing very bad about my behavior this night for many reasons. First, I've lived in this town for a long time and have been know to be "that guy" at the bar who is always super drunk. Second, a large portion of the people that live in this town go to the place I work at and I remember seeing a lot of them that night. Third, I have had a lot of problems with alcohol in my past. I have been known to do ridiculous things when I am blacked out and I'm pretty sure that this time was no different. My friend that I went to the bar with ending up leaving shortly after we arrived so he wasn't there that long. He called me the next day to make sure I got home okay because he said I was "real fucked up" and was "being real generous towards people by buying them drinks." The thing I'm worried about is that I can't remember what time my card got declined and I'm pretty sure I stayed at that bar until closing time at 1:30 a.m., so I'm hoping that I didn't do anything too bad after that happened. Something small like that can trigger me to act completely different when I am intoxicated. The reason I am stressing so much is because it was such a long black out and I cannot remember how I acted or who saw me. I just know that I saw a lot of people I knew there and a lot of people I do know, go to this bar every weekend. It's been over a week and I haven't drank since and do not plan to. I'm worried though because this has happened before and I wouldn't drink for a few months, but then repeat this behavior after I have gotten over it. This has happened too many times and I'm now 28 years old and sick of feeling the shame and embarrassment of things I do when I am drinking. Maybe I am just overthinking it because I had so much of a blackout that I am just assuming the worst had happened. Whatever the case may be, I am tired of being that drunk idiot at the bar and feeling so humiliated that I never want to show my face in public again. I'm almost too scared to know what happened that night because I am afraid of what people are going to say. This is not how I want to be remembered.

我现在羞愧和内疚得要死。我丈夫的家人来给我过生日，我喝得太多了。我丈夫指责我挑逗他的朋友，我想我没有。但后来我对我丈夫和他的家人说了很多可怕的话，我尖叫着，咒骂着，说了最侮辱人的话。我丈夫的家人说，如果他不离开我，他们就和他断绝关系。已经5天了，我仍然对自己的行为感到极度焦虑。我睡不着，因为每次我闭上眼睛，就会想起过去。我觉得恶心恶心。我不是那种人，也不知道知道自己这样做后该如何应对。我已经发誓戒酒了。

我也很惭愧。我喝烈酒，知道这会让我发疯。我只对和我在一起8年的男朋友疯狂。我太疯狂了，试图在我最好的朋友家里的独立日派对上当着所有人的面和他打架。我为此感到非常难过和恶心。我真的很想戒酒，我要戒酒，我希望我能坚强，不放弃。喝醉对我没有好处，只会让我唯一爱的男人恨我，不和我说话。我希望我们能和好，我希望我能坚强，不再喝酒。

昨天我和男朋友在朋友家像往常一样喝得酩酊大醉。我刚下班，一整天都没怎么吃东西。我喝醉了，但没什么大不了的，只是有点吵，有点讨厌。一切都很好，直到我们上了优步。我们在泳池里待了一天，当优步来的时候，我只穿了比基尼上衣和短裤……还不错吧?(我不记得这件事了，从这一刻起，我的男朋友不得不告诉我所有的事情)显然，我认为在后座上展示我的胸部，试着爬到我男朋友身上会很可爱。愚蠢的醉酒，大声而含糊的话语。说我想上他，说我有多饥渴。当我们终于回到家的时候，我们所有的邻居都在外面闲聊。然后我从车里出来，看起来像个混蛋，想要跳到我男朋友身上。 I embarrassed my boyfriend and now I am mortified. Completely disgusted with myself. Alcohol has always caused me problems in life but for some reason I still drink. Why do I do this to myself?

哇!我很高兴找到你们!去年夏天的街区聚会搞得一团糟，我一直很焦虑!这是我们在这个社区的第二年，没有人真正认识我们。我通常不喝那么多，我喝了一些葡萄酒，我丈夫一直让我别喝酒，但这位女士一直给我注射果冻，这就是一切都变得一团糟的时候。除了对一些非常敏感的事情感到沮丧之外，我还喝醉了，做了一些愚蠢的决定，比如说一些愚蠢的事情，几乎亲吻那位女士的嘴唇，逃离我的丈夫，躲着他等等，直到有一个邻居威胁要报警。我感到非常尴尬，我今年不打算参加了，因为这里甚至没有人跟我打招呼，但他们从来没有发出过邀请。所以我现在只想尴尬地死去。我希望我能像《无耻之徒》里的弗兰克一样，但我不是....看来我比这里的任何人都搞砸得多。我猜我住的地方的人非常挑剔，但我打赌他们一生中至少搞砸过一次，我知道这是我的行为，都是我的错，这是真正的家庭聚会，即使他们雇了乐队，也没有人在那里跳舞。 Never in my life I messed up that bad. I have to live with it now learn from it and just be careful with drinking alcohol.....

今天我感觉糟透了。我和一个我喜欢的女孩约会了，她对我很可爱，她很漂亮!最后，经过几周的日常交谈和联系，我们安排了一次酒吧约会。遇到这么漂亮漂亮的女人，我太紧张了，我愚蠢地决定买4瓶啤酒，提前喝3瓶，然后在出租车上给她买第四瓶!非常愚蠢的决定，由于工作和匆忙准备，我一整天都没有吃东西。
当我遇到她时，我已经烂醉如泥，而当我到达时，她很好心地为我准备了一瓶葡萄酒。我抓起瓶子，给我们倒了两大杯葡萄酒，然后很快就喝光了，然后又倒了.....她很可爱，我们真的很来电，但糟糕的事情发生了。
我喝得不省人事，在4个小时不知道发生了什么之后回到了现实。我在城市的大街上独自醒来!然后我低头看了看我的手机，她有几个未接电话，Snapchat说我“疯了，她不再感兴趣了”。我回答说为什么....然后她继续告诉我，我在酒吧里出丑了，我把她一个人留在那里!显然是一个多小时后跑回来然后开始跟她说疯话。她在Snapchat上屏蔽了我，我仍然喝醉了，然后决定给她打了10多次电话，我给她发了50多次短信，从解释我自己到非常卑鄙，我甚至不能提到我对她说了什么.....然后我继续喝得更醉，坐在一条小巷里，哭到我看起来像精神崩溃了。人们向我走来，问我是否需要帮助。
我跑回家，对我的家人哭了，说了一些愚蠢的话，他们现在无法让这些话离开他们的头脑，今天早上我醒来时感觉非常糟糕。那个可怜的女孩根本不应该受到这样的对待。我不仅毁了和她在一起的机会，还说了一些卑鄙的话，现在在她看来我完全疯了。我说的话一直在折磨着我，因为我无法原谅自己对那个可怜的女孩说的话和所做的事。
我现在再也不打算喝你那过量的酒了，在我得到我需要的帮助之前，我甚至也不会尝试下一次约会。

我为自己上周末制造的一幕感到羞愧。和我的一个朋友进行了一场愚蠢的比赛。喝得太多了，我什么都不记得了。第二天没有勇气面对我的朋友们。我失去了自尊。最重要的是，我在朋友中失去了尊重。如何克服这种感觉?

今天我和家人在一起很开心。我叫Sabine，住在美国，我丈夫离开我3年了，我非常爱他，从那时起我就一直在寻找一种方法让他回来。我尝试了很多选择，但他没有回来，直到我遇到一个朋友，他把我送到Dr.love一个施法者那里，他帮助我在两周后把我的丈夫带回来。我和我的丈夫今天幸福地生活在一起，那个男人很棒，你可以通过电子邮件联系他oduguspellcaster@gmail.com现在我会建议任何严重的人发现自己在这种问题联系他，现在一个快速的解决方案没有压力。他总是你好，现在我叫他我的父亲。现在联系他，他总是在线电子邮件oduguspellcaster@gmail.com

今天我和家人在一起很开心。我叫Sabine，住在美国，我丈夫离开我3年了，我非常爱他，从那时起我就一直在寻找一种方法让他回来。我尝试了很多选择，但他没有回来，直到我遇到一个朋友，他把我送到Dr.love一个施法者那里，他帮助我在两周后把我的丈夫带回来。我和我的丈夫今天幸福地生活在一起，那个男人很棒，你可以通过电子邮件联系他oduguspellcaster@gmail.com现在我会建议任何严重的人发现自己在这种问题联系他，现在一个快速的解决方案没有压力。他总是你好，现在我叫他我的父亲。现在联系他，他总是在线电子邮件oduguspellcaster@gmail.com

我发现自己总是喝得酩酊大醉，做一些令人遗憾、尴尬的事情。
昨晚我在酒吧摔倒了，被保镖抬了出去，因为我太醉了。几周前，我喝得酩酊大醉，睡在床上，半夜醒来，开始在我朋友的脚上撒尿，她睡在我的沙发上。还有一次，我喝醉了，半夜醒来，在我朋友客厅的角落里撒尿。
这些绝对是我最后悔的事情。我从来都不是一个卑鄙的酒鬼或滥交的人，但我的问题总是喝得太醉，粗心大意，失去平衡，口齿不清，这种情况经常发生，尽管大多数时候我喝酒都不会发生;我曾经想过一起戒酒，但我从中获得了太多的乐趣。
21岁了，还在努力控制酒精，不让它控制我。

有一次我在我家附近的公共图书馆喝得酩酊大醉，然后开始用笔记本电脑大声放音乐。一位女士好心地让我把声音关小，我回答说:“你们马上就要打烊了。”然后又有两个人走过来让我把声音关小，我说:“你会怎么做!!”那位先生回答说:“我会打电话给治安官部门的”，然后我就开始说:“这是一个卑鄙的打击，兄弟!”一遍又一遍。我迅速收拾好东西离开了，走出去的时候开始辱骂所有的图书管理员。回想起来真是太尴尬了。我知道不像这些图书馆那么糟糕，但我真的很喜欢图书馆，甚至想在这里工作，因为它是一个如此美丽的位置，我是一个藏书家。可能不会发生。我想为我的行为写一封道歉信给图书馆的工作人员。

它的困难。因为对我来说，如果我喝醉了，但没有做错事，我仍然会感到羞愧，就像过去我做过坏事一样。我知道，当我看到喝醉的人要么真的喝醉了，要么真的在做傻事。我几乎马上就把它忘了，它并不困扰我。但当它是我的时候，我有一种下沉的恐惧感。当我喝酒的时候，我更外向，所以担心人们怎么看我。奇怪的是，我认为我们在过度思考之后对自己所做的大多数折磨，只会让事情变得更糟。但是很难不这样想和感觉

这个周六，我只是在我的两个表兄妹面前发疯了，一些尴尬的事情，和我男朋友在电话里聊了一些事情，哦耶，开始给墨西哥的家人打电话，哭得像个十足的傻瓜，天哪，多尴尬啊!!骂我的男朋友等等，所以我现在感觉很糟糕，我的cusin是这样的，为什么我不喜欢踢它与你当你喝醉了，你如此咄咄逼人和一团糟!!这让我很生气，因为她比我喝得还多，但她是那种甚至不照顾我的人，你知道，原谅你自己，亲爱的，继续前进吧，没有人是完美的!!

你的故事没能让我对我的醉驾感觉好点。我曾经无数次把自己搞得一团糟，但这一次却比任何一次都要糟糕。所以我和我最好的朋友去了她兄弟的万圣节派对。我有严重的社交焦虑症，如果我和不认识的人在一起，我就会喝得太多。我在派对上并没有让自己尴尬，只是有点大声，想要一个同性恋的电话号码。啊。总之，问题是当我回到家的时候。我什么都不记得了。第二天早上10点我醒来，收到朋友的短信，让我删除Snapchat上的文章。我发了什么?! I posted videos of me topless, saying really nasty, dirty, provocative things. I also posted 3 topless pictures of me. All my co-workers and friends were on my Snapchat. They all saw it. Even better, there were 12 screenshots of me! I quickly delwted everything Even though the damage was already done. I was so mortified. Best of all, I broke up with my bf a few weeks before this and his friend saw my snaps and told him all about it. Way to kick a horse while its down. I still cringe thinking about it.

我不是要比谁都强，但这次我可能是最棒的。我想开始补充b我是6英尺5英寸，狂热的健身爱好者，大约285磅。所以，开始吧。
我和我的女朋友去了一个酒厂/啤酒厂，和她的朋友/父母一起喝酒和户外娱乐，看到这是春天的第一个美好的日子。我们大约10个人，在酒庄外面一边喝酒，一边玩棋盘游戏，度过了一个愉快的下午。几个小时后，我们决定回到她朋友家，向她的父母道晚安。所以，我给每个人买了一箱啤酒和披萨，说实话，我想给我喜欢的女人身边的人留下一个好印象。当我和她的朋友们一起买完披萨回来后，我的夜晚永远地改变了。现在，我可能已经在几个小时内喝了十几瓶啤酒，几乎没有吃东西。她朋友的男朋友请我喝一杯杰克威士忌，亲爱的。当所有人都看着我拍这张庆祝的照片时，我并不认为这是个坏主意。我拿了一个，又拿了一个。那一刻是我记忆中的最后一刻直到我记得坐在警车后座，被带到县监狱。 Thy night, I was told I tried jumping off a 40 foot balcony, pushed my gf, split my head open somehow, had my gf's friend chase me around town for 2 hours, trying to calm me down, I ripped a railing off a house, attempted to punch out a windshield(no f-ing idea) and verbally berated everyone. To boot, I was pulled over, driving the opposite direction from my house, earning my first DUI. It has been 1 week since this happened. Every time I think about this, the deepest amount of depression sets in. My girlfriend, who I adore imennsley, has her friends not talking to her, and haven't said to her she should break up oth me, but it doesn't need to be said. I have treated this girl like my queen, with respect and honesty, aside of a bad 3 hour time frame. I don't know how to get over this, she breaks down crying every few hours, she doesn't want us to break up, but even tho I feel I was drugged or something and can't remember any of this, it will be the reasocso man things happen differently in my life. I feel like a complete waste of life. But letting er go will ply hurt her more and I know I'm far better of a man than got I was that night. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated.Nate.diehl50@yahoo.com

我有过几次醉酒的尴尬时刻，我想和大家分享，因为这可能对我有帮助。我们有一个大学活动，我和我的整个同学都出去了。我喝得很醉。那晚的事我已经记不清了。但我记得那晚我紧紧抓住一个男人不放。我不知道事情发展到什么程度。但我被赶出了酒吧，他给我发信息问我是否平安到家。我看了他的facebook资料，发现他结婚了。班上每个人都知道这个，但我是新来的，所以我不知道。其他很多我都不记得了，但我确定都是坏事。 Sos.

我和15个好朋友一起去了朋友聚会。我喝醉了，和一个男人亲热。当时觉得没什么大不了的，第二天早上朋友告诉我我所做的一切时也不觉得有什么大不了的。星期一到了，我和这个家伙对峙，说要打我最好的朋友的屁股，因为她显然不喜欢。请注意，这个打了我朋友屁股的家伙，正是那个喜欢我两年，但一直停留在最好的朋友区域的家伙，直到我交了男朋友，伤透了他的心。我告诉他要尊重她，他把他拍她的屁股比作我喝醉了吻那个男人来报复我。我甚至问过那家伙是否同意，只是为了确保我没有得到混淆的信号。但是那个扇我朋友屁股的家伙(我们就叫他戴夫吧)揭露了我(或者试图，我不太确定，因为我不知道这是不是真的)，说那个和我亲热的家伙(我们就叫他鲍勃吧)不想亲我和所有这些事情。在那天剩下的时间里，我只收到了来自男人们的废话(这纯粹是玩笑，但仍然很伤人)。我只是不确定戴夫说的是不是真的。 Because my best friend told me she also asked Bob if he even wanted to and he said yeah. I’m not sure if Dave was embarassed and just wanted to retaliate by making a lie and telling everyone about it or if t was the truth.

我感到非常尴尬和羞愧。我本来过得很好，生活很和谐，直到上周我又开始喝酒了。周六我在工作，一个和我乱搞的可爱送货员来了。我已经3周没见过他了，所以在他分娩后，他问我什么时候下班，我告诉他4点，所以他说，好吧，我还在附近，顺便来看看我。下班后，我也不知道为什么要喝烈酒。当我路过他去过的商店时，我突然想起了其他的事情。我在他面前被逮捕了，我记得他跟警察说话，我的车被拖走了。我只得到了保护性监禁，但据我从几个人那里了解到的情况，我差点撞到别人，我的新二手车也刮坏了。可怕，我觉得自己很愚蠢。我住在一个小镇上，我觉得很尴尬。 I wonder what he thinks of me now. I don't want to see him or face anyone for awhile but unfortunately I work in public and have to face it. Such a humiliating ordeal I just wanna cry and cry.

我昨晚喝得酩酊大醉，毁了这家伙的21岁生日派对。我摔倒了，在地上打滚，抓着男人的阴茎，表现得邋遢、好斗、下流，尽管我有一个男朋友，我好几次把啤酒洒在他的门廊上。我把自己弄得又吵又讨人厌，真是出了洋相