心理疾病的内化污名影响康复

你好我妻子刚刚住院一个月前与bi极地障碍让我拿起台2年的地狱,试图重建一个未来我8岁的女儿说实话我希望她从来没有失去她谎报我每个人都让我是可怕的人告诉我我负责的为她做的一切,我已经想了很长一段时间几乎为什么人好笑的看着我开始相信我可怕的自己saving grace was a honest decent person who i respected told me i was the most decent person he had ever met and that he had been watching what was giong on for some time he told me he was slowly watching me fall apart i lost four stone in four month(she didnt lose any weight)worked every day looked after my daughter every evening while being abused on a daily basis. i still find it hard to believe that a person can try and destroy someone they say they love im very sorry but this is not the person i met 10 years ago my family are saying stick with her but why should my childs life be destroyed by by an unfeeling uncaring abusive self centered person they say oh poor girl what about the familys that are destroyed by their actions no doctors for us no help for us just people looking saying he must have done that to her; well i would just like to add that some of my neighbours have tried to talk to me again i told them to go away dont look at me or talk to me ever TIRED OF BEING THE VICTIM of sombody elses problem am i wrong to say ive had enough i had a member of my partners family come to help he left after 2 days 2years for me i feel suicidal depressed embarrased but i have to get up out of bed and make a life for my child work every day who helps us (me i have just to keep going while im falling part with stress ) i have realized that people with bi polar only think of them selves she has tried to destroy me even went to police said i assulted her ha ha ha i was to embarrased to tell the police it was me assulted what a wonderfull life with some one with bi polar lie after lie after lie soon to be bye bye bye

我同意雷妮塔的看法。我曾多次住院，个人力量的部分撕裂了我的灵魂。我仍在努力恢复自我意识和属于我的个人力量。服药后很困难，我不知道什么是我自己，什么可以改变。我自己也不知道。这就像我管理了一个不同的自我和角色，因为我被拒绝了那么多次。我也曾多次受到欢迎，但后果和瞥见哪里出了问题只是一个方向，它并不能提供一条可靠的道路。当你看到自己不同于别人对你的看法时，有很多事情需要处理。而且，当别人看到的和你看到的完全一样时，有时是最糟糕的。我也意识到，我有一段时间表现出了我通常不会表现出来的行为。 It is a catch 22 trying to make a living good enough to take care of yourself because as soon as something isn't so good everyone just leaves or gets aggressive for what is lacking and the depression/isolation of fighting/self-protection gets worse. I am terrified of settling down because the anxiety of knowing one wrong step and my entire life falls apart. It doesn't seem worth the effort. Too much is at risk. I am heartbroken at the way I feel I have to protect myself and insulate myself just trying to protect what I dont even have. I dont know how to know myself and share 'myself' because my memory and experiences are all intertwined with good and bad. It really depends on the person and then people and relationships fail.

对不起，我犯了一个错误是我以前的帖子。在我第一次住院期间，我过量使用氟哌啶醇，这实际上导致了一种危及生命的疾病，称为抗精神病药物恶性综合征(不是迟发性D…如前所述)。吓死我了。目前，我正在使用Lamictal和Abilify(低剂量)的组合来维持双相情感障碍1，因为我拒绝使用锂(太多的不良副作用，它甚至没有接近接触我的抑郁症!)我谨慎地相信我现在的pdoc，我最终不会出现与1995年使用氟哌啶醇时相同的副作用。理智上讲，我知道我不应该为自己有大脑障碍而感到难过，但情感上讲，由于公众对精神疾病的看法，我有时忍不住觉得自己是个失败者。

作为一个猥亵和贬低了一步父母从9岁我知道这就像背负无功受禄的羞愧和流失严重,信任和自尊,特别是在一位养母,小时候也曾猥亵未能支持我当我终于鼓起勇气告诉她它添加到16岁的进食障碍(因为有人告诉我我不是值得石南的爱,因为我太胖)。我完全憎恨自己，至少我是这么想的。然后在我33岁的时候，我第一次非自愿住院，住进了精神病院，我被残酷地剥夺了自我辩护的权利。我只是因为严重的抑郁和焦虑而过度服用氟哌啶醇，以至于我不能走路(由于迟发性诵读困难)。我无法清晰地思考，除了在服药期间极度疲劳之外，几乎没有任何感觉。我不是狂躁，我只是害怕得要命!!我非常沮丧，对自己受到的对待感到焦虑。我不需要再抑制我的多巴胺水平了。除此之外，每隔几个小时就会被叫醒，一遍又一遍地问我是否有自杀的念头。我本能地知道，如果我回答了这个问题，情况会很快变得更糟，所以我撒了谎。 I did indeed feel suicidal but NOT before entering the hospital! Logically speaking why wouldn't a person feel that way when their personal power is stolen out from under them. How could you not feel anything but hopeless and powerless to the point of wishing death would come quickly. It's doesn't take a rocket scientist to understand why the suicide rate is so high even after being discharged. I vowed NEVER to be put in a situation like that again yet I was hosptialized 2 more times over a 15 year period before finally being diagnosed with a bipolar disorder. I had been so traumatized by these events that I felt like a victim of PTSD! Also feeling like a lab rat while a pdoc stumbled to find the right combo of meds and the result being a huge debilitating weight gain, it's no wonder why I felt such betrayal, shame & embarrassment that I internalized it as stigma. External stigma is bad enough but when it comes from within it can be crippling!!! I am now cautiously learning to climb out of that self imposed prison as I slowly recover what was taken from me. I could care less at this point what other people think or feel about me. I am more concerned about my own opinion & how that's affected me. Very slowly I AM learning to believe in MYSELF which in turn makes me stronger to deal with the external stuff

我认为自我污名化是一种普遍的态度，几乎每个患有精神疾病的人都有这种感觉。尽管马上接受它并继续生活是有意义的，但要达到这一点需要一个过程。我曾经为残疾人工作过。我遇到了这个孩子，一个非常聪明的孩子，有音乐天赋，有望成为茱莉亚——在一次反常的事故之前。现在，他脖子以下都瘫痪了。我们的谈话一开始是积极的，理智上，他知道他必须接受目前的状况。他开始告诉我，他仍然能读懂音乐，在他的脑海里，他仍然知道如何演奏，但他的身体已经无法再演奏了……他说不下去了，然后就崩溃了。他开始乱扔东西，要求我们打电话给他父母来接他。他一遍又一遍地说他是多么不想去那里。我知道身边有很多残疾人，而且知道大多数人可能无法改善，这对他来说太难了。 I could say that he is simply immature and dismiss him, but that would not acknowledge that he was grieving.
我认为这对任何一个新诊断的人都是一样的。他们不想待在这里——处理一些他们无法控制的事情的后果，处理被污名化，处理药物，预约，他们生活中不是他们选择的改变。
这并不是消极的，而是提醒我们自己，我们有权利对糟糕的疾病有自己想要的感觉。如果我想恨它，我就会恨，直到我可以诚实地说我可以接受它。你知道吗?接受它有好有坏。所以你可能会不断听到我说我有多讨厌它。
我只想说，如果你是那些无法站起来为自己感到骄傲的人之一，我理解。如果你还没准备好，我不会让你接受。我不能。我不知道你要怎样才能走到那一步，我也不完全知道你的经历中有什么让这一切变得特别困难，但我真的理解。

心理健康状态是指在任何时间、任何地点都具有满意的生活功能和良好的情绪感受。第二个问题表明许多主观和矛盾的按摩。因此，真实地了解精神病患者对个人心理体验的看法是很重要的，而个人心理体验则表现出整体的内在情感生活。在这个方向上，你关于病人及其近亲接受和维持精神治疗的建议是非常重要的。心理健康表现出更多的挑战，因为仍然有许多社会污名恶化了各自精神障碍的适当康复过程。这些言论应该受到精神病学家和其他管理精神疾病治疗的精神卫生工作人员的密切监督。

我并不为自己有情绪障碍而感到羞耻，我感到羞耻的是我不那么可靠，我并不总是能够正常工作，我没有做过生活中我想做的事情。如果我用我的情绪障碍作为借口，那只会增加双相情感障碍患者不可靠的耻辱。但如果人们不了解我，那我的生活也就没有意义了。

阿米莉亚，我完全能理解你的经历。我还在面对自我羞辱。我知道我永远不会像评价自己那样评价别人，但很多时候还是很痛苦。即使月经期间发作次数减少，我仍然有这种感觉;我正在通过心理治疗来解决。希望有一天我能停下来。

我喜欢你的现实主义，朗达。我相信我们将在10年内看到对心理健康的污名化的终结。也许是乐观，但很多人都在动员这场运动。

我同意你所说的一切，但无论你的自尊有多高，对治疗的依从性有多好，康复效果有多好，当别人避开你或发表伤害性的评论时，你仍然会受伤。我倾向于乐观，相信世界上关于耻辱的事情肯定在改善。也许有一天，我不相信我是消极的，只是现实。

在从最近的一次发作中恢复期间，我发现我实际上是在羞辱自己，因为患有双相情感障碍而把自己困在巨大的羞耻负担之下。这让我很震惊，我是一个聪明善良的女人，从来不会故意伤害或诋毁别人，为什么我要这样对自己?当我从逻辑上思考这个问题时(一旦药物开始起作用)，为我与生俱来的东西感到羞耻是没有任何意义的。从这7年的耻辱负担中解脱出来是如此的自由，我现在有动力参与进来，大声说出来。娜塔莎，谢谢你的另一篇高度相关，准确，鼓舞人心的帖子。