男人。我懂你!直到四年前，我才意识到自己是位神使。最近我问自己，然后大声地说，“我如何在工作中运用我的同理心?”我希望我在学校能选择一条不同的道路……直到我意识到自己是神使;现在，我超级专注于它，感到绝望……我会回到学校，但一想到必须去某个地方，周围都是人，我就害怕。我不想认识新的人，因为我知道如果他们中的任何一个有问题，我也会……如果他们中的任何一个人死了，我将被同样的痛苦所窒息，我想象他们的亲人正在感受着…… at the same time, neglecting my family because I’m so wrapped up in a problem that isn’t my own. Even though I recognize it and try to avoid certain things, I ultimately feel out of control. Who wants to live life this way? I don’t want to die, but I don’t want this feeling either. I feel like I have to avoid people, altogether... no store, walk dogs at night, walk as fast as I can in and out of anywhere, no eye contact, no meeting neighbors (that makes me cringe because, then, I feel obligated to them - I don’t want to always be giving my sugar away either)... it goes on. I recently tried a job and I was paranoid all the time... ALL THE TIME. A little contradictory to avoiding people, but on the flip-side, I would pass by people and if they looked sad or distressed, I would smile to make them feel better and think about them all day long... and every time I went to work... “I wonder if they’re better” (even though I didn’t even know if they had a problem) OR “it would be so sad if that happened” (“that” meaning the worst possible scenarios)...
我猜，在漫谈之后，我也想知道如何避开人……别让自己看起来像个没时间陪别人的混蛋。不要觉得我必须发现每个人都有问题(有时，无意识地)，(更奇怪的是)，感觉房间里还有其他人，他们就像我一样，试图弄清楚我是否有问题。
找到一种方法来处理这件事会很好……至于现在，我只想待在里面，永远。希望你找到了方向。：）