我只是觉得自己有点不对劲。我得出的结论是焦虑。例如，今天，我有一个测试。我学习并认为我会做得很好。我得到67%。我只是对自己感到羞愧和失望。我学习和阅读，但我很容易忘记。我一遍又一遍地查同样的术语，但我还是忘记了。我行动很慢，而且我必须在某些组织工作。我不能从任何地方开始。 After i start i decide it was a bad idea to start this way and i change things few times and never like it anyway. I feel tired, slow, stupid even. I feel suffocating and i cry alot. Small things makes me cry. I feel overwhelmed. I know i have a lot on my plate and it should be normal what in feeling. Then i go back and just say no im just stupid. I have an ideal husband who adores me, a great child. But i dont give them as much as they give me. I dont even know if thats what it is. I just blame myself anyway for what ever that doesn’t seen right around me. At the end. I know i will keep feeling like this and there is nothing i can do about it.