2017年10月3日23点

就我而言我是极度的身体和心理上的虐待2年来几乎每月几乎每天身体和开关. .我是男性不寻常但我生长在一个普通中产阶级家庭nad从来没有把我的手放在一个女人在我的生命中或在任何战斗. .13年这个人虐待我是令人困惑的男人. .在这种情况下有很少或没有资源支持其通常在DV情况下男性对女性. .通常人会叫警察给我. .我确实有一个酗酒的问题,增加了毒性的情况,但我想经过长时间没有或非常适度饮酒。其现在困惑我早上我又让我们分离,常数barrading和情感虐待更具破坏性比当我回顾我们有一个看似正常和快乐爱回家. .我两极躁郁症参与一些施虐者的行为虽然她抑郁药没有精神病发作. .会发生我们会快乐的爱,云上九十一天,然后第二天早上会黑暗,充满了焦虑和愤怒通常针对我. .怪责我指责我喝(即使清醒),它开始变得太多. . All I can say is I had no idea.. that I was being emotionally abused as well as physically abused is obvious.. hit with car, baseball bat,frying pans bit in the face.. police called on me almost evicted constantly shamed in public in front of neighbors verbally abused at every effort .. to try to mend the situation. my buisness suffered and came to ahalt my quality of life was dimished in to that of the stay at home dad babysitter .. maid.. as this person did not maintain much around the house we both contributed financially. This happens to men more than people think and most men are ashamed to admint that there being dominated by and aggressive Abusive personality type... it wasnt until I started educating my self on Abuse in all forms and factors that I realized the physical abuse is painful but just the tip of the iceberg... I stayed only because we have children which I had to watch all the time taking a segway to her personal endevours.. Im a good person.. a strong person but no one is strong enough to endure this type of treatment.. I have left im on my way to recovery I get to see my kids thankfully that is going well.. but starting from the ground up again is the biggest challenge being alone and hurt.. with nothing.. is so difficult - I meditate do yoga swim .. bike paint draw read and work allot.. but I have lost my .. inspiration and im looking to go to some group.. but as I said the resources for men are almost nill ... if any other men have expierenced this get counseling unfortunetely I was trying but she would not go or make any effort.. no I will be in therapy for sometime im sure trying to rehash what just happend if I will ever be able to figure that out.. I think moving on and giving some time to make new friends and love again .. hopefully.. its benn a terrible journey of suffering I wish I would have gotten out sooner.. that is all I can say dont stay for anything.. your only hurting yourself more if you do Domestic Violence abuse needs more awareness is all I can say.. one love