去年,我知道我的丈夫所做的只是把我当他和他的朋友们,煤气灯。我丈夫特别自恋的天赋让我认为我疯了。所以我开始跟踪一切通过写日记。读了在过去的15年里的一切都是困难的。我现在更多的授权,但我觉得不足够强大或者有朋友或家人的支持,因为他使我从他们。我感到孤立和不知道去哪里寻求帮助。感谢你让我知道它是好的。现在,我将研究和获得建议。很难做他想要知道的一切,我去哪里,我做什么,我跟等等。我不想恨我的丈夫但没有对他的爱离开我。我很生气,很容易被欺骗。 Angry at myself and my husband being so cold to me that I just wanted to shrivel up and die. Waking up to what is going on , I mean really going on, was hard. But I know now that I'm by far more internally strong because of what I've had to put up with over the years. It will take time, life is too short to waste it on people who profess they love you, but more likely need you.