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大约5年前，我上大学时第一次出现了恐慌症。我把它归结为一个空闲的日常生活，大量的饮酒和吸烟(烟草和大麻)，最终的催化剂是与我的女朋友分手。她的房间就在我房间的正对面，所以我发现很难过去，偏执渗透进来，瞧!我精神崩溃了。大约有一个星期的时间，我怎么也弄不明白那是什么。不断地需要站起来活动，心悸，失忆，与朋友和家人失去联系，一种厄运和恍惚的感觉，整个九米。最后，我觉得自己要疯了(不是吸烟就是喝酒让我得了精神病，就是得了肿瘤)。事实上，我不得不在最后一个学期离开大学。它被正确地命名为“活死人”，因为你觉得你醒着的时候被讨厌的想法主宰，通常在你最终入睡之前，最讨厌的想法就会结束。这就是我现在的生活…… I never considered suicide but there was a whole month where I wished I didn't wake up, which I'm sure a lot of people on here can relate to now or in the past. I would have panic attacks everywhere, someone looked at me funny in H&M once and I came straight home, couldn't get on the bus because I was afraid of my hand shaking giving out the change. It is quite possibly the worst feeling to be consumed by fear . I went to see a therapist who said I had general anxiety disorder, brought on by an undiagnosed case of ADHD when I was younger and the trauma and physical abuse I put myself through at Uni. He advised I take meds but I refused, insistent that my mind was still my own (having a bad perception of medication). My therapist introduced me to something called mindlessness, a form of meditation that brings focus and suggests that rather than tackling nasty thoughts, simply ignore them. Let them slide off you. It was a difficult road but after a month or 2 of practising this I felt a vast improvement and within less than half a year, I felt my old self again. I went from thinking about anxiety every second of every day, to having weeks go past when I hadn't even thought about it. I now refer to that part and time of my life as my 'funny stage' and where it was originally a life consuming terror, I now see it as a good thing, that needed to happen, something to steady my ship in the long run. Nowadays I feel the first onset of fear a mile away and I go through the motions, (closed eyes, breathing, mindlessness) and within 5-10 minutes I'm back and in control. If I'm feeling spacey or tense I ask myself, have I been drinking or smoking too much?. The cognitive and behavioural changes I now make in my life control my anxiety, not the other way around. That's not to say I'm not a different person, I am overall a lot tenser and nervous about certain things but I am now much wiser about it too.
这篇关于我自己焦虑经历的冗长描述(我道歉)的重点是让每个人都知道，克服焦虑总是有可能的。不管你对自己和未来有多悲观，即使你看不见希望，希望还是存在的。之前已经在这里说过，首先要发现你没有疯，失去理智或发疯是最基本的。恐惧的身体症状(战斗和逃跑反应)是令人讨厌的，意识丧失是卑鄙的，呼吸急促是一个讨厌的(我发现在你头脑中整理事情以冷静下来时使用这样的词语实际上是很棒的)，但它们都是无害的，都在那里帮助你。关于焦虑和恐惧，我听过的最好的比喻就是满满一品脱的玻璃杯……
假设一个没有焦虑的人经历了一些有压力的事情(工作面试，关系问题)，加了水(象征压力)，但水的水平足够低，所以没有溢出来;因此没有崩溃或恐慌发作。或者，压力水平已经很高的人，在遇到压力时，一品脱的玻璃杯可能会溢出来。我总是发现这样想压力很有帮助。我放纵了3天，我的水喝完了，所以我睡觉，不喝酒，放松。这样想可能会对你有帮助:)你现在可能是满满当当的，但只要采取正确的步骤，你就会恢复到良好的水平。对我来说，这是几个月，一次治疗，大量的睡眠，大量的冥想，很少或不吸烟。这真的取决于什么对你有用，只是需要时间来弄清楚:)
附注:我决定在这里与你们分享，因为我最近出现了眼睛飞蚊症，这可能会伴随我很长一段时间，这给我带来了很大的压力，我觉得自己开始变得无法控制的焦虑。我预约了心理治疗，试着让自己平静下来。尽管我很担心，但我仍然感到非常乐观，这是我认为的关键:)没关系，伙计们，我们可以打败它!