BPD是真实的
2018年7月22日上午4:54

我不宽容任何形式的滥用。然而,话虽如此。并非每个口头虐待者都是一个虐待人。我在一种叫做BPD的疾病中挣扎,它不代表BI Polar。当我感到压力,生气或害怕时,我会进入脑海中的战斗或飞行模式。我不喜欢它,通常我会恳求我的妻子停止进一步推动论点,她最终会继续前进。然后我最终失去了它,这种疾病正在猛烈抨击,并竭尽全力。我不喜欢它,每次结束时我都会觉得狗屎。我从不隐藏她的问题。我告诉她我有什么以及发生了什么事。 She still agreed to marry me. The help she tried to give was not the proper help and she never even read up on it. I thought she knew what was wrong with me but I found out after 5 years she never even read it. She jhas been dealing withy problems for that long and never knew why it was happening. I never wanted to say bad things to her. The sad thing is after she left. That's when she decided to actually find out what was wrong with me and how to really help. But the damage in her mind was already done and not able to be fixed. I took just want to be loved and have a healthy relationship but I'm not able to have that because I was broken as a child and it's not a super glue fix. I have said I was sorry so much it's not even funny. But I don't mean to sit here and make it sound like it's ok to be abusive. I just want to open your eyes maybe that person actually needs your love and support and therapy Because they might just have a mental health problem. Not everyone asked to be cursed with a disorder. And I don't think that one person's problems should become a bourdon on someone else. But if you know the problem and still agree to be with them. Then find ways to help. I just wish I had real help before it was to late. I chose my job to support my family over my mental health and I ended up losing everything in the end. I miss my son and my wife. Now I am on a medicine that is a mood stabilizer so I don't lose control as easy. Actually I haven't at all since I started taking it. Dispit how much my ex seems like she tries to get me to lose control just to help her case later down the line. But I just wanted to open your eyes to other sides. I just needed proper help and I'm getting it. Not every abuser is just some ass who likes to hurt others. I'm not saying stay with one. But if they want the help and is willing to get it. Try.